I was afraid to be alone/
Now I’m scared thats how I’d like to be.

Last November Azure Ray lost someone special. It is not clear if it is a family member, friend or significant other; it doesn’t matter. It is not clear what type of loss it is either. Is it a break up? A death? We are not sure. What we know is that the narrator is deeply changed even one year later and she ponders how much she has changed. It seems like she is an entirely different person.

Once she was strong, now she is hoping to get up “the strength to give it one more shot” (love? Life?). She doesn’t know if she’ll ever be able to pick herself out of her depression. In her suffering she starts to see a lot more suffering in other people too. She doesn’t see an end, but asks that her friends understand and be patient with her.

Azure’s “November” is one of the best songs depicting loss and depression. It is beautifully and tenderly sung as well. The only instruments are an acoustic guitar and a cello and the arrangement is perfect. The chorus is a fantastic fit and serves as a crescendo point: “I’m about to give this one more shot…” Azure Ray is a lesser known band and song and it is great to introduce it to a larger audience. It is a true gem.

November Lyrics

So I’m waiting for this test to end,
So these lighter days can soon begin.
I’ll be alone by maybe more carefree,
Like a kite that floats so effortlessly.

I was afraid to be alone.
Now I’m scared that’s how id like to be.
All the faces none the same,
How can there be so many personalities.

So many lifeless empty hands,
So many hearts in great demand.
And now my sorrow seems to far away,
Until I’m taken by these bolts of pain.

But I turn them off and tuck them away,
Till these rainy days that make them stay.
And then ill cry so hard to these sad songs,
And the words still ring, once here now gone.

And they echo through my head everyday.
And I don’t think they’ll ever go away.
Just like thinking of your childhood home,
But we can’t go back were on our own.

Oh…
But I’m about to give this one more shot.
And find it in myself,
I’ll find it in myself.

So were speeding towards that time of year,
To the day that marks your not here.
And I think ill want to be alone,
So please understand that I don’t answer the phone.

I’ll just sit and stare at my deep blue walls.
Until I can see nothing at all.
Only particles some fast some slow,
All my eyes can see is all I know.

Oh…
But I’m about to give this one more shot.
And find it in myself,
I’ll find it in myself.

Songwriters: John Abercrombie / Marc Johnson / Peter Erskine